And research and research. Today's theme was adoption blogs, then Yahoo! groups, and now it's whether to use pay-pal or amazon to receive donations and sell my wall votives to save for the adoption. It seems as though both charge the same amount, amazon seems as though it might be easier to use. I wonder if I could use both, and then if one's less popular switch to the other one?
I had been holding off on starting the actual fund raising process until we got re-started, but after reading others' blogs I see it's not uncommon to begin before the actual process. Insert huge sigh of relief here. And it's not as though we won't adopt, we will, even if I get discouraged I am still determined and hopeful. Here that K~? Determined(he,he). K~ is on board with the adoption he's supportive, interested, and involved, he's just not actively involved in the research the ethics topics the questions of what agency is a better fit for us. I may want him to be active in this, but I may have to resign myself to simply having his okay. That makes it sound awful doesn't it? Like I'm demanding and he's a door mat. Well, I'm not demanding and he's not a door mat. This just happens to be one of those areas where he's completely clueless and at a loss and I have definite opinions. I do wish that his views or more like his determination on this more mirrored my own. But I didn't marry male-me. He's much cuter.
K~ and I have had many ups and downs, we've been together for 13 years! We've made it through the 7 year itch and are going to celebrate 8 years of marriage in September! Just in the past few years we've come to terms with our odd-ness and the relief of not having to live up to ideas of a perfect family has made things so much easier. Who knew? And most importantly I love him. And he cleans. ;-)
So back to the topic, pay pal, amazon or both?
I'll have to pay closer attention to whats being used.
OMG, I still have one hour left at work! Save me!
Ahhh, who am I kidding? I'm gonna leave early, it's too nice out!
Things that make me happy today:
Spring
A happy talkative little boy
only one hour left of work
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
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Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Monday, March 26, 2007
Ding Dong Ding
Hey,
I have a song going thru my head. Well, not so much a song but those 3 words, Ding Dong Ding. A~ had a little group recital at his Pre-k today. And oh what drama. The poor kid has developed a case of stage fright. Which is odd considering the fact that he performs "concerts" for us every day sometimes 2-3 times a day! Granted he doesn't sing, he dances, and it's just us. He dances to Gwen Stefani's "laya-laya-lah"(aka. Wind it up) or Sweet Escape these days. But he was so worried last night he was up with nightmares until about 3am. We first let him know that talking about it to his teacher would probably help a lot, I bet she's dealt with this before. Then when he was still worried and crying we assured him that if he would rather stay home it was OK. I hoped he'd go, and face his fears, but I didn't want to put pressure on the little guy. K~ being the dad, let me handle most of it, because his instinct was to tell him he had to go and that he'd just have to deal. Which is normal. But made me think that it'd end up being (what we call) a green bean thing. Force a kid to eat green beans, he'll never eat them again. Be supportive in him trying green beans and he may try them, and in A~'s case may grow to like them.
K~ didn't eat green beans until he was 28. (and he still won't touch canned ones)
So, this morning after I went to work K~ asked A~ if he wanted to go to school. A~ said "yes"! Then he said "I want to make you proud" (Awwww). K~ told him that he was proud even if he chose not to go. But he went and he sang, no tears. He looked very determined and even smiled once or twice.
He really is such a serious kid sometimes. He reminds me of me. And I think it's an only child thing. There's just too much time to think. Parents don't make good playmates, and there aren't any kids in our neighborhood. Plus, he's 5 I'm not going to let him run to a friends house anyway, even if there were kids. ME I was tooling around the neighborhood on my big wheel. I think I 'ran away' every week. Which was just a quick big wheel away to the park. Often I was hanging out at Mrs. Q's house eating doughnuts (I called her my adopted grandma) or waiting around in the yard for the mailman Gordy to bring me mail and hand me rubber bands from his big bag. Ahhh, the 1970's. People would toss moms in jail for half the crap I did alone as a kid! But then I'm sure the previous generation was thinking they were too over protective!
People my grandparent's generation probably wonder what the heck kids do nowadays, when do kids get to run wild? My parents never seemed to have adult supervision in the stories they tell. I should ask.
Anyway, I feel bad that A~ doesn't have a sibling to play or bug or teach or fight with. I know my life is a lot more 2 dimensional because I didn't grow up with a sibling (I have one, but I was 17 when he was born). No matter how hard you try, friends do not replace siblings.
Someday I hope our family will be 4 of us instead of 3.
House news: The doors are still beautiful! I am often found standing in the living room admiring the new front door, mumbling to myself "wow".
We did do actual work this weekend!
A~ went to Nana's, while K~ and I painted the office and bathroom.
NEXT UP: decluttering and a new kitchen floor.
And in trivial news; I'm addicted to a computer game, Roller Coaster Tycoon 2. It's sad, I know.
I have a song going thru my head. Well, not so much a song but those 3 words, Ding Dong Ding. A~ had a little group recital at his Pre-k today. And oh what drama. The poor kid has developed a case of stage fright. Which is odd considering the fact that he performs "concerts" for us every day sometimes 2-3 times a day! Granted he doesn't sing, he dances, and it's just us. He dances to Gwen Stefani's "laya-laya-lah"(aka. Wind it up) or Sweet Escape these days. But he was so worried last night he was up with nightmares until about 3am. We first let him know that talking about it to his teacher would probably help a lot, I bet she's dealt with this before. Then when he was still worried and crying we assured him that if he would rather stay home it was OK. I hoped he'd go, and face his fears, but I didn't want to put pressure on the little guy. K~ being the dad, let me handle most of it, because his instinct was to tell him he had to go and that he'd just have to deal. Which is normal. But made me think that it'd end up being (what we call) a green bean thing. Force a kid to eat green beans, he'll never eat them again. Be supportive in him trying green beans and he may try them, and in A~'s case may grow to like them.
K~ didn't eat green beans until he was 28. (and he still won't touch canned ones)
So, this morning after I went to work K~ asked A~ if he wanted to go to school. A~ said "yes"! Then he said "I want to make you proud" (Awwww). K~ told him that he was proud even if he chose not to go. But he went and he sang, no tears. He looked very determined and even smiled once or twice.
He really is such a serious kid sometimes. He reminds me of me. And I think it's an only child thing. There's just too much time to think. Parents don't make good playmates, and there aren't any kids in our neighborhood. Plus, he's 5 I'm not going to let him run to a friends house anyway, even if there were kids. ME I was tooling around the neighborhood on my big wheel. I think I 'ran away' every week. Which was just a quick big wheel away to the park. Often I was hanging out at Mrs. Q's house eating doughnuts (I called her my adopted grandma) or waiting around in the yard for the mailman Gordy to bring me mail and hand me rubber bands from his big bag. Ahhh, the 1970's. People would toss moms in jail for half the crap I did alone as a kid! But then I'm sure the previous generation was thinking they were too over protective!
People my grandparent's generation probably wonder what the heck kids do nowadays, when do kids get to run wild? My parents never seemed to have adult supervision in the stories they tell. I should ask.
Anyway, I feel bad that A~ doesn't have a sibling to play or bug or teach or fight with. I know my life is a lot more 2 dimensional because I didn't grow up with a sibling (I have one, but I was 17 when he was born). No matter how hard you try, friends do not replace siblings.
Someday I hope our family will be 4 of us instead of 3.
House news: The doors are still beautiful! I am often found standing in the living room admiring the new front door, mumbling to myself "wow".
We did do actual work this weekend!
A~ went to Nana's, while K~ and I painted the office and bathroom.
NEXT UP: decluttering and a new kitchen floor.
And in trivial news; I'm addicted to a computer game, Roller Coaster Tycoon 2. It's sad, I know.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
More Important things
On to more important things: We have been so slow at getting our home ready for sale. It's just that doing anything we need to do, which is mainly painting, during a MN winter is not really feasible. Paint drys sllllooooow in the cold. Plus it stinks and I need windows open. I know, excuses. But their good ones! What have we finished? Well, we laid new carpet in the master BR all by ourselves! Looks great! We switched the rooms around so that the MBR is the MBR not an office. A~ has what was the old MBR before the addition, which in my opinion is the best room in the house, lucky boy! He loves it! Then his old room will be an office, if we can paint it. I rearranged the living room and we bought a small entertainment center, the old one was a huge teak thing built for stereos in the 1950's I was always afraid it would collapse under the weight of our TV. But being the cheap (ahem, frugal) people we are we could never find the extra $ to replace it. And I'm so glad we did.
Today we got our new front entry/storm and mudroom storm doors installed! I have yet to see them in person, but K~ emailed me pics. It's a drastic change from the original 1950's dark solid wood door and (homeowner made) screen doors! I hope it's a good investment. I remember walking up to our house for the first time and thinking these doors are why it hasn't sold. (and why we got such a great deal on our house!)
Next on the list, painting, and more painting. We have to paint the office, the bathrooms (3 of them) the nasty 1950's cabinets, and the stairway. Then we need to replace the flooring in the kitchen and do some serious decluttering/packing up.
And on top of it we've been trying to conceive again, without drugs and Dr.s, so who knows, but we figure we may as well try since adoption's not possible at the moment. It's been difficult to not get hope up. It's been difficult to even try again, since the end of every cycle can be so disappointing. But I tell myself I am hopeful, not wishful. This month I wasn't feeling well and was 4 days late. But, I'm still hopeful, for next month.
K~ hasn't found a job yet. We're not sure how to tackle his getting a job since we'll hopefully be moving out of state. I think he should look into a national company where transfers would be easier. Heck, I'd transfer nearly anywhere!
We've been talking about and I've even been looking into living and working in VN for a year. That would be the best way to learn Vietnamese! Not to mention I love the food, most of the culture and K~ would really benefit from it (A~ and I would too of course)! The only thing I'm not sure I'd deal with well is the heat and humidity.
Today we got our new front entry/storm and mudroom storm doors installed! I have yet to see them in person, but K~ emailed me pics. It's a drastic change from the original 1950's dark solid wood door and (homeowner made) screen doors! I hope it's a good investment. I remember walking up to our house for the first time and thinking these doors are why it hasn't sold. (and why we got such a great deal on our house!)
Next on the list, painting, and more painting. We have to paint the office, the bathrooms (3 of them) the nasty 1950's cabinets, and the stairway. Then we need to replace the flooring in the kitchen and do some serious decluttering/packing up.
And on top of it we've been trying to conceive again, without drugs and Dr.s, so who knows, but we figure we may as well try since adoption's not possible at the moment. It's been difficult to not get hope up. It's been difficult to even try again, since the end of every cycle can be so disappointing. But I tell myself I am hopeful, not wishful. This month I wasn't feeling well and was 4 days late. But, I'm still hopeful, for next month.
K~ hasn't found a job yet. We're not sure how to tackle his getting a job since we'll hopefully be moving out of state. I think he should look into a national company where transfers would be easier. Heck, I'd transfer nearly anywhere!
We've been talking about and I've even been looking into living and working in VN for a year. That would be the best way to learn Vietnamese! Not to mention I love the food, most of the culture and K~ would really benefit from it (A~ and I would too of course)! The only thing I'm not sure I'd deal with well is the heat and humidity.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Once again the name changes...
So this is what, the third time the name has changed?
We received some terrible news this week, K~ lost his job. Which means we have no way of moving forward with the adoption at this time. I am heartbroken. K~ is shell shocked. Being that K~ worked at a manufacturing plant for 8 years means that any job he'd get now would be nowhere near the same pay. I only work part-time with no option for full time at my current job. We were stretched as it was, and now this. It's been 4 days now, and it still only hits me about every couple hours, and then I think I must look as though I've been slapped, and all I can think is Oh Shit, what are we going to DO?! It only just hit K~ yesterday, he got the official letter in the mail. My mom thinks we should talk to a lawyer. We're not sure yet.
I was so happy on Monday. I felt good. Things were moving along with the adoption. I was happy on Monday.
Today, today I'm trying to make sure A~ brushes his teeth 2x a day so we don't have to go to the dentist, I was supposed to make an appointment last month but I didn't. I'm glad we got our flu shots. Today, K~ was looking at Realtors online, so we can sell our house and we talked about selling our car.
Luckily Mpls is great this time of year for free family things, we went to the 8th floor Macy's Mary Poppins display, and today we went to FREE first Saturday for Families at the Walker. A~ loved it, even though he kept asking when the gallery tour would be over! Even so, he didn't want to leave. I guess we'll be going there next month too! At least we can find things to take our minds off of the predicament we're in, while entertaining A~. We are terrible playmates these days. I am also thankful for Target's awesome after Christmas sale last year, and the August toy sale they had this summer, because A~ will still be rolling in some pretty cool toys (half of which I don't even remember buying).
We're trying to keep our 'chins up' and trying to think positive. I'm trying to think of a possible move as an adventure. Most of all I'm trying not to think of the adoption gone wrong, but delayed. I tell myself "We'll be okay", because we will eventually be fine. There's still a lot to be thankful for.
We received some terrible news this week, K~ lost his job. Which means we have no way of moving forward with the adoption at this time. I am heartbroken. K~ is shell shocked. Being that K~ worked at a manufacturing plant for 8 years means that any job he'd get now would be nowhere near the same pay. I only work part-time with no option for full time at my current job. We were stretched as it was, and now this. It's been 4 days now, and it still only hits me about every couple hours, and then I think I must look as though I've been slapped, and all I can think is Oh Shit, what are we going to DO?! It only just hit K~ yesterday, he got the official letter in the mail. My mom thinks we should talk to a lawyer. We're not sure yet.
I was so happy on Monday. I felt good. Things were moving along with the adoption. I was happy on Monday.
Today, today I'm trying to make sure A~ brushes his teeth 2x a day so we don't have to go to the dentist, I was supposed to make an appointment last month but I didn't. I'm glad we got our flu shots. Today, K~ was looking at Realtors online, so we can sell our house and we talked about selling our car.
Luckily Mpls is great this time of year for free family things, we went to the 8th floor Macy's Mary Poppins display, and today we went to FREE first Saturday for Families at the Walker. A~ loved it, even though he kept asking when the gallery tour would be over! Even so, he didn't want to leave. I guess we'll be going there next month too! At least we can find things to take our minds off of the predicament we're in, while entertaining A~. We are terrible playmates these days. I am also thankful for Target's awesome after Christmas sale last year, and the August toy sale they had this summer, because A~ will still be rolling in some pretty cool toys (half of which I don't even remember buying).
We're trying to keep our 'chins up' and trying to think positive. I'm trying to think of a possible move as an adventure. Most of all I'm trying not to think of the adoption gone wrong, but delayed. I tell myself "We'll be okay", because we will eventually be fine. There's still a lot to be thankful for.
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