Once again the name changes...

So this is what, the third time the name has changed?
We received some terrible news this week, K~ lost his job. Which means we have no way of moving forward with the adoption at this time. I am heartbroken. K~ is shell shocked. Being that K~ worked at a manufacturing plant for 8 years means that any job he'd get now would be nowhere near the same pay. I only work part-time with no option for full time at my current job. We were stretched as it was, and now this. It's been 4 days now, and it still only hits me about every couple hours, and then I think I must look as though I've been slapped, and all I can think is Oh Shit, what are we going to DO?! It only just hit K~ yesterday, he got the official letter in the mail. My mom thinks we should talk to a lawyer. We're not sure yet.
I was so happy on Monday. I felt good. Things were moving along with the adoption. I was happy on Monday.
Today, today I'm trying to make sure A~ brushes his teeth 2x a day so we don't have to go to the dentist, I was supposed to make an appointment last month but I didn't. I'm glad we got our flu shots. Today, K~ was looking at Realtors online, so we can sell our house and we talked about selling our car.

Luckily Mpls is great this time of year for free family things, we went to the 8th floor Macy's Mary Poppins display, and today we went to FREE first Saturday for Families at the Walker. A~ loved it, even though he kept asking when the gallery tour would be over! Even so, he didn't want to leave. I guess we'll be going there next month too! At least we can find things to take our minds off of the predicament we're in, while entertaining A~. We are terrible playmates these days. I am also thankful for Target's awesome after Christmas sale last year, and the August toy sale they had this summer, because A~ will still be rolling in some pretty cool toys (half of which I don't even remember buying).

We're trying to keep our 'chins up' and trying to think positive. I'm trying to think of a possible move as an adventure. Most of all I'm trying not to think of the adoption gone wrong, but delayed. I tell myself "We'll be okay", because we will eventually be fine. There's still a lot to be thankful for.